The loss of our baby...

Prescious Baby

I found out I was Pregnant about 6 weeks after our wedding

I was told that I was 4 weeks along.

We were so happy and told everyone.

I was never sick just very tired and sore

I was not late yet, I just felt different.

I got to enjoy being pregnant for 2 weeks because at 6 weeks I went to the ER because I wasnt feeling well. I was told that I was miscarrying.

my husband and I were devastated.

I felt like my body failed me.

It was my job to protect my child and I didnt.

I didnt want to be around or talk to anyone

but I put on my brave face.

I never got to hear our babys heartbeat..and that breaks my heart.

I found this poem and It helped me a lot.

What Makes a Mother

I thought of you and closed my eyes

And prayed to God today

I asked "What makes a Mother?"

And I know I heard Him say.

"A Mother has a baby"

This we know is true

"But God can you be a Mother,

When your baby's not with you?"

"Yes, you can," He replied

With confidence in His voice "

I give many babies,

When they leave is not their choice.

Some I send for a lifetime,

And others for the day.

And some I send to feel your womb,

But there's no need to stay." "

I just don't understand this God I want my baby to be here." He took a deep

and cleared His throat
, And then I saw the tear.

"I wish I could show you,

What your child is doing today.

If you could see your child's smile,

With all the other children and say...

'We go to Earth to learn our lessons,

Of love and life and fear.

My mommy loved me oh so much,

I got to come strait here.

I feel so lucky to have a Mom,

Who had so much love for me.

I learned my lessons very quickly,

My Mommy set me free.

I miss my Mommy oh so much,

But I visit her every day.

When she goes to sleep,

On her pillow's where I lay

I stroke her hair and kiss her cheek,

And whisper in her ear.

Mommy don't be sad today,

I'm your baby and I'm here.'

"So you see my dear sweet ones,

your children are okay.

Your babies are born here in My home,

And this is where they'll stay.

They'll wait for you with Me,

Until your lesson's through.

And on the day that you come home

they'll be at the gates for you.

So now you see what makes a Mother,

It's the feeling in your heart

it's the love you had so much of Right from the very start

Though some on earth may not realize,

you are a Mother.

Until their time is done.

They'll be up here with Me one day and know that you are the best one!"

my husband and I are TTC at the moment..

Without Hope you have nothing

Brenda <3